Hi Shilo! I hope this note finds you well. I see you have had a hard time. I have had a lot of illness in my life, making it quite difficult and lonely at times. One thing I always remember, when I have truly done all that I can and have no other way forward, there are good people in this world that will help, one just has to look for them. Don't ever give up! There is always a way. I wish you and your child every happiness!