I'm raising money for collage so I can further my education to lead to employment.

Why I'm using HandUp for collage.

I am using handUp because i want to raise funds for collage. i would love to attend UC Berkeley to complete an estimate of 5 collage corses of film making. for me to attend these corses i would need. Laptop with internet, phones with service,Cinema equipment for making films, Clothes, shoes, & food.

About me.

Hello. I'm from a small town in Tayug, Pangasinan in the Phillippines and stayed there until I was four years old, and then moved to San Francisco, CA with my kid sister to join the rest of my family, part two of two of the immigration move, you could say, to which we gained citizenship of the United States, and this is the city where I've lived ever since. I've worked in many places including the nonprofit Central City Hospitality House in the Tenderloin which serves those experiencing hardships and assists them to find a better path and a healthier, more sustainable, and gainful future. Currently, I enjoy writing at first using it for analysis and film critique which can be found at the San Francisco Public Library, truly a wonderful place, on their Bibliocommons site under my pseudonym 'Curiouskind.' And it has helped me on many levels to better understand my circumstances and where I need to be. More recently, I have taken an interest in cinema particularly because writing is involved and along the way, I have discovered that there are many aspects of cinema that has drawn my attention and interest both on and off mise en scene, the works of Julian Felllows, Bill Pope, Antoine Fuqua, Ang Lee, Vince Gilligan, Michael R. Jackson, Jacquel Spivey, Annie Proulx, Guillermo del Toro, Alexandre Desplat; further on this journey, I have come to realize that I am capable of creative thought, more so than I previously thought or allowed myself to go. 'Like who knew, truly.' Astounding me in the process and thusly teaching me a necessary lesson. There are so many things to research so that takes up my time, but when time is available I like to volunteer such as being an adjudicator and then becoming lead adjudicator in a panel through a program for restorative justice and originated by District Attorney Kamala Harris and then championed by her successor District Attorney George Gascon with the collaborative efforts of the nonprofit Pretrail Diversion and the City and County of San Francisco's District Attorney's Office and I volunteer in ways that help the city be a safer place and a more livable place; one of my favorites is the National Park Service through work in the Presidio and many parts of the city and in one capacity, helps to restore habitat for the environment and the many wildlife that rely on it, which I am a firm believer in. Further, I'm beginning to search for a job in a way that somehow supports my interest in cinema, at least that's the hope, with the larger goal of targeting places like SF Film, Lucas Films/Disney, Pixar, even Netflix. But at this point, a job is a job, so...like baby steps-something.

My backstory.

This is a complicated story, even extraordinary, and on many levels ruinous and stressful to say the least, and the impacts on my health from the oversized chaos and the stress and that's just for starters. I found myself in places I couldn't even conceive of prior to, and I'm not so sure after all this time, thirteen years-worth, that I quite understand it myself, still. What I can say is that it started with a mental meltdown and then it snowballed into a lot of other things. I'm seeing a doctor now and I hope it will lead to a more sustainable path. And in the meantime, I am trying to fix other things, the many other things, that went sideways and stayed that way for a long time because extraordinary kept on building upon extraordinary like, 'What is this. Now what?' yet another apotheosis; and there were certainly moments, many certainly moments, I just didn't know how much further I could sustain it, how much longer I could last like something out of 'Momento' 2000. But I am witness to myself that somehow I persevered and made it through, that no matter what, and that was important.

My goals, moving forward.

Besides what I've already mentioned above, I'd like to be more self-sufficient and to be more social, to have friends around me that support me and encourage me and visa versa. I'd love to have a car so I can travel to places that I've never been. I haven't had a car in more than a decade and in that time, I've stayed only in San Francisco. There's a bigger world out there, most certainly.

Other things I'd like to share about myself.

I love to tend the garden for peace of mind and calmness. Cooking, I've been following Jacques Pepin in particular for many years, truly the master chef, but also Lydia Bastianich, Ina Garten, Jaime Tracey, Matt Matheson, Carla Hall, Sunny Angelo, Cassie Yeung, Melissa King, so, so many, and I've learned a lot of things along the way. I made flan once for an event and by the next event, they were still talking about it; it was almost weird. I like when people treat their pets well and I believe that animals have a right in this world as well, so the healthy preservation of wildlife habitat and if I could support the Nature Conservancy, a wonderful organization BTW, advance their mission I would. I like to read mostly non-fiction and reference books. If I could travel, I would most definitely. I love train rides, my friend taught me that Jim. I hope he's doing well. This world needs more nice guys.